Growing a PhD; resilience is futile

My resilience has plummetted, and then i found this, and it helps explain how come.
And the resemblance to the koru is remarkable.

I guess its just the spin on things that makes it seem a never decreasing circle of despair or potential for new growth. Maybe meditating a few affirmations will help :)
My cup of spirulina is not slime and is half full, not half used.